A shitty upload of a shitty picture

I tried so hard and got so far but in the end it just turned out horrible. Here's an attempt at Bea, which is distorted by the fold in the paper. The style of it is just all wrong for meee......

GOD ITS SO BAD I APOLOGIZE TO ALL OF YOUUUUUUu....

Wow, a Post That's Not About The Roleplay??

damn, this is weird. I basically made this blog for Divided, but as you can (hopefully) remember, I did say that it was also going to have some personal stuff too. So, today, I'm just gonna ramble about this year's Banzai, and also Halloween.

So, last year, maybe you remember my four (five? idk) posts about Banzai, and my cosplays, and the struggles and the fun times and all that. Well, that time is rolling around again! I'm excited but also nervous as hell to go, because for one, this year, I'm sticking with Tori and their friends only. Because of the fact that Alix, Madison, and Sara all can't go, Siri decided that it wasn't worth it, and now Allie doesn't really seem like she wants to go. So I'm ah, I'm really bummed out about that. *sighs* I wish we could all go. Last year it was really fun to be with all my friends and hang out. Oh well. Maybe I convince Allie to still go...?

But, besides that, let's get onto the part that I wanna ramble about. My cosplays. Talking to some of my friends, I found out that some are taking around like, eight cosplays with them. Like, no thanks. I would prefer not to have to lug all that around and have to deal with changing in the middle of the day. But, perhaps, I might have more than three cosplays this time 'round.

So, this year, I'm gonna be kinda dull. I'm gonna be actual Aradia this time, unlike last year (which was a sucky try at human Aradia). I even got my horns and fixed my shirt!!!! I'm so excited to try and be her this year. Next, I'm going to try and be fem!Karkat. What I wanna try and do is find a turtleneck black sweater (hopefully it won't be super hot there) and then get grey jeans and grey paint, and paint the turtleneck. I'll most likely use my Aradia wig, and just pull it into a braid or pigtails, I dunno yet. I'm also gonna try and pull back my Crockercorp Jade this year (yeah, I know, lame reusing cosplays). I just have the slight issue that my friend took my skirt so uh, hopefully I'll get that back. Ahaha. *shifts a little*

But, I also am starting to pull together another cosplay! Recently, I lost my heart and my soul to a show called Gravity Falls. My heart was taken by the main character, Dipper Pines, the dorky and nerdy and paranoid noodle kid. So, I wanted to try and take a stab at cosplaying fem!Dipper! I have the hat, shorts, and hair to do it. I just need the vest and the shirt, and then I'm set, I suppose.

Anywho, I'm a bit scared and nervous about this year's Banzai. Hopefully I won't be pulled into the drama there and end up crying and having a breakdown (like so many do o~o)

Next on my agenda is Halloween. I'm panicky about that thing. Idk what to do for it. I might do fem!Dipper (most likely, if I can't pull it together by Banzai), or maybe do Charlie Brown ghost (but that's pretty lame), but I also really really really wanna do a cheshire cat kinda thing. but that's kinda hard to do with all the dressing and then the makeup (I wanna do the cool mouth thing), and I probably wouldn't be able to trick or treat in that costume. So, maybe I'll just do fem!Dipper. Idk man. I'm panicky. q-q

So yeah, that's all on my mind. I should be focusing on school, but nope. It's cosplay month. WOO.

OH! A final note. Allie wanted all of us to go to Banzai, and cosplay our characters. So she'd be Anthony, I'd be Bea, Sara would be Shade, Siri would be Lizzie, Alix would be Shi (you haven't really met her), and Madison would be Skyler (nor her). Allie already has most of her cosplay put together and she's ho t. I would like to cosplay Bea too. Maybe someday...*looks off into the distance* . . . what was the point of this paragraph? I dunno. Just a little thought of mine. ANYWAY! Until next time!!!!! :D

Just A Heads Up

I'm gonna put this blog under construction, try to change it a little. By changing, I mean making it less...pink. I guess. I dunno, let's see how this goes!! O-O

Beatrix Serenity Holmes

So, as I promised from my last post, I am here to talk about my OC! I've been working on her for over a year now, and I've come so far into her history, personality, everything, I just want people to know about her. So, here's a little thing about Bea Holmes!

Gender:
Female
Age:
20 years old (Birthday being December 15th)
Height:
5’ 8’’
Status:
Antagonist/Protagonist
Power:
Bea has mind control; she can tell someone anything and they will do that. She can only do it on humans though, unless the animal has a human mind. Also, she has to make eye contact. Bea is known to be best at her ability, though she rarely uses mind control. The red X in her left eye is captivating and can have mass effect. The X appears over her irises, and on the victim, their pupil, though it only appears as she gives the orders.
Other than her mind control, Bea has knife shooters, a contraption unique and one of its kind. She made it herself; they hook around her arms, near her shoulders, and have a thin pad down the inside of her arm so she won’t get cut when flicking them out. The knives themselves are thin, but indestructible, and very sharp.
Appearance:
She is tall, and has blonde hair that falls to her chin/shoulders. The hair flips out at the ends, curling a little, but not too much. Her bangs are side swept to the right. She has violet eyes, almost a royal purple. Bea loves to wear long-sleeved flannel shirts (usually are plaid), and dark denim jeans with rips on them. She loves to wear combat boots sometimes, but usually Converse. Also, she wears a lot of jewelry around her neck and wrists. 
She carries a backpack full of things such as bandages and things. She also has lots of manga in there. And a gun, which she rarely uses. She wears a bandage that goes from her left cheek down to the bottom of her jaw, covering the scars from her suicide attempt. The suicide attempt was almost right after Ash (her brother)’s death (she was 17), but she was shaking too hard and misfired, shooting out her cheek. It left a horrible scar so she covered it up.
Personality:
Bea is known as a very bi-polar girl, having two sides. A pissy and untrustable side where she is cold and refuses to let anyone in, and then her sweet side that shows that she cares for the ones that are close to her. Almost all of the time though, she is a joker and a swearer, who can get easily pissed. She also is known to boast about herself at times. Bea can do very spontaneous things, and they can be dangerous or stupid. She also can be a bit of a bully sometimes, well to Shade, mostly.
Other Information:
She had a brother named Ash, who was pushed to Lizzie by Scarlett and Jade when he was young, being murdered brutally by Lizzie in her werewolf form. Bea attempted suicide after it, being cracked. She failed miserably though, and has two bandages, one on her cheek, the other on the bottom of her jaw. Those bandages are permanent, because the holes never quite closed up, and she hates the look of them.
After her brother died a girl named Jade said she could help her find the thing that killed her brother and to avenge him, and recruited Bea into the Shadows. Bea has been with the Shadows since she was sixteen and is one of the most dangerous and best. She is high up on the ranks with Cassie, Anthony, Jade, and Nate. 
Jade caught whiff of potential Shadows or threats, and sent Bea to recruit them. But Bea took too long and became too close, and so Jade sent Anthony after instead. Bea was livid, and scared because she doesn’t want her friends to become Shadows, but if she went against the Shadows they would execute her.

Here's a picture of an outfit she would wear:

Courtesy of Polyvore

Anywho, there's Bea for you. She's a lovely girl, trust me. After all, I did create her. *smirks* So, until next time, guys!!

Hello Friends~

Here's another vital vocab. This ones a little sad uvu

         I closed my eyes and sighed, watching Bea disappear around the corner of the hall. Dammit, why did she have to be so oblivious? Or maybe...it was just me. I never was quite good with the whole affection thing. Bad memories floated around my head and I shook them out quickly, pacing the halls. Maybe I should just quit on her...
       I rubbed my temples, the thought leaving my head as soon as it came. I knew I couldn’t. I fell hard for Bea Holmes and I was stuck with the consequences. Consequences being...
       “Oh, Anthony!” I looked up, my honey colored eyes meeting the dark brown ones of Tyler Noel, Bea’s partner. I swallowed another sigh, straightening. “Mmh?” I answered him. He smiled brightly at me, walking towards me.
       “Did you hear the news?” The spark in his eyes, the grin, his voice. To anyone else it sounded like good news. To me everything he said was ominous. I raised an eyebrow, too tired to answer him. He carried on anyway.
       “I proposed to Bea!” My heart stopped, my breath catching in my throat. “And she said yes! I can’t believe it!” I couldn’t either. Nor could I find my voice. “Speechless, eh? Me too, frankly. Well anyway, catch you later!” He brushed past me, and left. I found myself stuck to the tiles my feet were on. Everything was quiet, except my head. Inside, everything was screaming, swirling, twisting. I felt sick.
       I finally made myself move. Where? I didn’t know. I had to get out of this place though. Where? Who knew. Maybe if I ostracized myself for a bit, cleared my head, I could...I could...could what? Forget? Instead of the entrance of the base I found myself at my room, then my bed. I blinked and found the orthodox walls were oblique. Slowly I realized I had collapsed onto my bed, the brown blankets soft against my cheek. I closed my eyes.
      “Bea...” I murmured, trying to make everything stop spinning. But I couldn’t. Why?
     The girl I was in love with was going to marry someone else.

Another Vital Vocaaaaab!

So the first Vital Vocab I posted had to do with Bea leaving, Anthony and Shade running after her. Bea had stolen the Army's jewels, but why? And where is she going? Well here's the new update for that!! :O

      I ran and ran, my breathing hard, my lungs refusing to accept anymore running, but I kept at it. I didn’t want to be caught. So I dealt with the burning until I reached a large tree, reaching the sky. I smiled, panting. “Yo!” I shouted.
      A man dropped down, graceful and precise. He stood and smiled at me, noticing the bag at my hip. “So you really went through with it, huh, Beatrix.” He said, strolling up to me and taking the bag. He weighed it and nodded. “Good job.” I smiled, appreciating the kudos.
      “Why did you need the jewels again, Nate?” I asked, trying to control my breathing. We started walking and the tree opened up to us as we stepped into a tunnel. He tied the bag to his belt, before turning to me and flashing a smile.
      “It’ll help us not be so latent anymore. As you can see we’re minuscule, this will help us grow, develop. Also, it’s a nice message to the Army.” He added as the tunnel opened up to the clearing, a large tree hollowed out to make room for a small rebel army, the Shadows. I grinned, jubilant of how much I was helping the Shadows. That’ll show you, Lizzie, Hank, Tyler. I’m useful.
      “Anyways, I’ll take you to Lea. She’ll show you where you need to go.” He started walking up the stairs, but paused. “Except, ah, don’t judge her too harshly. She’s a bit...special.” He tapped his head. “Very smart. Mmh...too smart, really. She’s a bit laconic. When she does speak, it’s too fast for us to understand sometimes.” He gave a small, exasperated smile, but there was something behind his eyes; I came to realize that it was lucid that he liked her. I smirked, rolling my eyes.
    “Lead the way, loverboy.”

*waggles eyebrows* Nate's got a crush on an insaaaaane girrrrl~~

Happy New Year, and a New Post!

So, I've been gone for a while, and I feel like I should post. So here's another Vital Vocab! The thing behind my writing is I use the characters from a book I'm writing with my friends for this. :3

     I was immersing myself in my music, my eyes closed and nodding slightly to the beat when my earbuds were ripped from my ears. “A-Ah, what the he--?” I started, but looked up to see an extremely angry Anthony above me. My earbuds dangled from his fist, and I shrunk a little. “H-How did you get in here?” I asked quietly, glancing at my door. There was no sign of damage, lock picking, anything. I swallowed.
     Anthony, on the other hand, dropped my earbuds onto my lap, and shut the door. Then he turned back to me, his face calm but his eyes giving away his fury. “You didn’t do your job!” He seethed, and I shrunk back farther. “Do you even realize the amount of trouble you’re in, Bea?!” I looked down, fiddling with my hands.
     “Ah...I just, I...didn’t feel up to it....” I mumbled lamely. “It was just a simple assassination, couldn’t anyone else do it?” Anthony slammed his hand down on the table behind me and I jumped.
     “Dammit, no!” He gave me a haughty look, and I felt disappointment fill me up. “This isn’t an optional thing, Bea! We need to carry out our duties or we’ll be punished. That’s one of the rules.” I didn’t reply, shaking slightly. After a few tense moments, Anthony sighed, done with his harangue. He collapsed onto my bed, and ran a hand through his hair.
     “I just don’t want you to get hurt. You’re new here, you clearly don’t understand this. Everyone has specific jobs, specific ranks for them. It’s...a hierarchy, you could say. With Jade as our main Leader.” He murmured, and I felt a twinge of guilt. He continued, looking up at me. “Just, please be careful. Just do your jobs how they are. If you don’t...who knows what’ll happen next time.” I sighed a little.
     “Alright, Anthony. I will.” I said, standing. I glanced at my door again. "Ah...how did you get in here, though?” He glanced at the door as well, smiling weakly.
     “Well, we all have our tricks.” He stood, and pulled me into a hug, kissing my forehead. “Hypothetically speaking though, you could have left your door unlocked.” I blinked as he pulled away and walked to the door. “There’s a meeting in an hour. Please, don’t be late.” And then he was gone, leaving me with a slow chill spreading through me.
     Who knows what’ll happen next time.

 Hope you enjoyed it~

So...yeah?

So, ah, in my English class, we're doing things called Vital Vocabs, which is basically where we get big words, a grammar thing (such as a semicolon), and two homophones. And then we had to put it into writing so it looked like we knew how to use them. Some examples are on Allie's blog (she writes really good ones, though short, still good. And it follows a plot and stuff! :o). And I'm actually kinda proud of some of my Vital Vocabs, so I'm gonna post them on here sometimes.
I'm gonna start with my most recent (and longest one), which is probably the first domino to knock down in a small series for this. I like the plot and idea I gave it. So, here it is!

        I ran down the street, making sure to keep a good grip on the bag dangling by my legs. I glanced back, grinned at the two chasing me, and ran faster, cutting a corner. My breathing was hard, my heart hammering in my chest as I leapt, skimming past the top of the fence in front of me, and cleared the jump. My feet hit the ground and I paused, seeing the two come around the corner.
       “Stop, Bea!” The man shouted, his eyes full of alarm and concern. He was reaching into his pocket.... I smirked, sticking my tongue out them.
       “Sorry, Anthony, Shade. But it’s too late for me to stop.” I said, my usual grin turning cold. I winked at them, then started running again, my feet echoing around the alley. Soon, I was gone, the bag holding Army jewels with me. Plan Rebel, instigated.
 –
       “Dammit Anthony, you should’ve let me go after her! I could’ve talked her out of it!” I shouted, stomping my foot. The tall man was leaning against the fence, running a hand through his hair as he tried to catch his breath.
       “Shade, you know she was set. You know she wasn’t going to listen.” He said, his voice full of defeat. I growled, and kicked the fence, hard.
       “That’s not true! The only reason she did this is because Tyler, Lizzie, all of them were so full of irreverence towards her! They made her reckless....” My mind was a blur, my thoughts inundating me. I shoved them down, swallowing the lump in my throat. “We have to go after her, we have to calm her, we...we....I can’t lose her like that.” I said finally, slumping against the alley wall. “She’s my best friend....” Anthony sighed, pushing himself off the fence.
      “I know, Shade. You’re not the only one who’s close to her, we’ve spent plenty of ti–” I snapped my head up at him, my glare piercing him.
      “Just because you’ve talked to her and probably gotten into her head doesn’t mean you know her like I do!” I snarled, interjecting him. I felt my throat constrict as Anthony looked away. “Sorry. I’m sorry. I just...She knows me like the back of her hand, I want to believe I’m the only one who knows her the best.” I said quietly, putting my forehead to my knees.
      After a moment, he sighed again, shaking his head. “Don’t worry, Shade. We’ll get her.” It occurred to me that Bea was bound to have passed the Army’s boundaries by now. Someone probably found that the jewels were gone...A chill passed through me.
      “Anthony....” I murmured, standing up again. I felt sick, and swallowed the lump in my throat. He looked up at me, frowning.
      “What? What is it?” I looked at him, fearing bubbling up inside. If the leaders found out that their jewels were gone...they would send people out to....
      “Anthony,” I said, latching onto the fence and climbing over. “Anthony, you told me that the Army is really strict. That they had no mercy for Shadows.” I said, dropping down. “And we both know that the Army is good at looking for people.”
       Anthony looked at me, lost. “Y...Yeah...?” He said slowly, climbing over the fence as well. He dropped down besides me. I started walking.
      “So, so if they find Bea...that’s stealing jewels and treason.” I insinuated, my walking getting faster and faster, until I was running. Anthony started running too, apparently catching on.
      “They’ll treat her horribly, brutally, and cruelly. Th–they might kill her on the spot.” I said, now sprinting in the direction she went, Anthony matching my speed.
      We need to find her. 

More Cosplay! (Part Two)

Last time we met up, I was explaining how horrible making my costume was, and how stressful it was to make it in the short time I had. Now, we move on to a more easy topic, how my cosplays were at Banzai!
So, the night before I left, I was panicking on how to pack my stuff. What was happening for the con is that I had to bring a bag of stuff to my friend Siri's house, because everyone going was gonna have a sleepover at her house. But, the next day, I had to lug my stuff down to the con with me because I was staying for Sunday as well. To do that, I had to ask my friend if I could stay with her at her hotel.
So, I decided on the most practical (not really) thing to do. I stacked my different cosplays, got separate bags, and stuffed them in there. Why? Because, it helped keep things together and it was less messy (yeah, right).
So the next morning I got up early, and started getting ready. Things were going awesome, my wig was doing awesome, I got help from my brother Alex with packing, and things were going smoothly. So, I'll show you what Jade looks like, and what my cosplay looked like.
A picture of canon Jade:

Thanks to Tumblr

Thanks MS Paint Adventures Wikia

Isn't she such a cutie?? Augh. Anywho, here's a picture of what my cosplay was.

Image is miiiine! No stealing :c

There was a bump in my wig from my hair so I fixed it with a hat! I thought it looked good. :3 So that was my first day. My friends I went with cosplayed as Fem!Scar, from Lion King, and Fem!Anthony, a character Allie came up with. Everything was pretty good that day, minus having a scratchy scalp at the end. We also went to a ball, where I put my wig hair to the side (which it looked actually pretty good!), and put on a black dress with green accessories.

At the end, we were picked up and headed home for the sleepover.

Really, I was the only one who was tired. Apparently the hosts of the sleepover got chips and soda and pizza, which everyone ate except for me. Why? Maybe because it was twelve AM in the fricking morning. They were all loud while I was trying to sleep, but finally everyone quieted down and we fell asleep.

Eight or nine hours later wer were awoken, and it was time to get ready for the next day of Banzai. My friends suck at the concept of cosplay so I was the only one who had a new cosplay. To make me feel less weird, Allie also put on her Fem!Anthony cosplay. But then there was a new twist arising. Madison, a girl who went with us, decided she didn't want to go again. She was too tiiiireeedd. *mutters* Lame. So, we called up a friend and she came over, took Madison's pass, and then Siri's brother decided he wanted to go too.

So, that was all decided. I'll tell you all about Saturday and my cosplay of Aradia Megido next time! Until then, happy holidays, and happy new year!

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More Cosplay! (Part One)

Okay, so I've been thinking, and thinking some more. The last post about cosplay wasn't my favorite. It was actually pretty lame. So this time, I think I'm gonna add meeee into it! I've always loved to cosplay, even though it's a huge hassle. Why, you ask? Well lemme tell you a story.
Just last October was Anime Banzai. I was pumped for it, then realized I had to get my cosplay together, or else I would be a freak in the crowd. So planning I went. There are three days in Banzai, so one cosplay per day would be perfect for me. Some of my friends even had two to three per day!
Anywho, so I decided to go with my main fandom, Homestuck. If you don't know what that is, my friend did a post aaaaall about it. So, I started thinking. Which characters should I choose out of the millions Homestuck provides? I ended up choosing two of my favorite characters, Aradia Megido and Jade Harley. Only change I made was to do human!Aradia. That means I didn't want to paint my skin grey, like a troll.
So I had two days down. I decided to do a spin off of Jade as CrockerCorp Jade. CrockerCorp is basically Betty Crocker. Who is evil (watch out, dessert lovers). Here's a picture reference.

Jade and Aradia were pretty basic. All I had to do was use my grey skirt I had, get a black wig, and a shirt for each. I was rocking with that (even got a whip for Aradia!), but there was one issue: CrockerCorp. There was nothing that I could just use for it, so I had to make it from scratch. And lemme tell you, that. Is. Horrible.
I got this big red skirt and white shirt, white stockings and red glasses. Then I got a crap ton of white fabric paint. So one night I was with my friend, and I got down to business. I laid out my skirt, and guess what I had to do? I had to paint a big *ss spoon all around it. Yeah, I know. *sigh*
I gave up on being nice and clean, getting dirty and painted, making a mess all over. I ended up painting my carpet. Anyway, I finally finished, let it dry, then put a second coat over.
At last, I was done. The night before the con, I packed up, grabbing all of my stuff, and ended up putting a little red spoon on my shirt. And so, I was all ready to go the con, and to meet the new anger and stress of dealing with cosplay.

I'm going to post about at the con next time, just 'cause I realize now that I'm totally ranting, so uh, yeah. STAY TUNED FOR BAILEY AT THE CON!

WHAT WILL HAPPEN?
WILL SHE DIE?
FIND OUT SOON!

Poetry Of Mine :3

Okay, so, in my English class, we're starting our poetry unit, which I'm very excited about. 

Image courtesy of Ptarmigan

I've always been in love with poetry (usually free verse and with emotion, though), and I've written some of my own. So, um, if it's okay with you guys, then I...shall post some. *nods* Mhm. Yep.


Speaking My Mind

When I’m alone, I think.

When I think, I start to form words.

But then, those words become bigger and bigger; more and more.

I begin to thread those words together, into long lines.

As if it was popcorn on a string during Christmas.

Thread and thread.

Those words slowly become sentences.

And then a final phrase.

A phrase of words that mean something.

Some people may call that poetry.

A work of art.

I simply call it

Speaking

My

Mind.

Secrets

Secrets

A simple word

I tell you a secret, and you tell me a secret

But the simplicity of that word

It does not even begin to explain the meaning

The consequences of breaking a promise

How much it can spread if it leaves your mouth

People today act without thinking

And when you don’t think

You may just slip out a secret

And then the dominos slowly fall

Knocking over each other, a chain reaction

And like that

You may just lose the one who told you that secret

The meaning of a secret

Is almost a promise

Something that shouldn’t be broken

A simple word with a massive meaning

Secrets

My Life

It’s funny

I live two lives

One at school

And one at home

A thief

And a beggar

Both looking for attention

One who steals the spotlight

And one who yearns to be in it

Funny indeed

My life

Sorry, ah, I guess it's a bit serious. For such a...not serious blog....But, yeah! I sometimes get a little sad and so I start to get creative in my head, and that stuff just...pops up. It's pretty cool, no? If you're looking for more poetry, and probably better poetry than mine, I found a site that's full of things all about poetry. Anyways, until next time, my lovelies~