Jade Harley --> ????

Okay, so recently I've been stressing about if I actually wrote the book. Because, um, well there's a lot of problems with one of my characters. For one, like ninety percent of her is not even my idea. Whoops. I originally just took a free-form character named Jade, and turned her into a girl with long white hair and red eyes, and gave her a last name. But the problem is, the character design was a bit unoriginal. The name I gave her was Jade Harley. And, if you look way back into my posts, you'll see that I basically just took the name from a character from Homestuck.

Which is bad. Not only that though, when looking for pictures of a girl with long white hair and red eyes, I stumbled upon gender bent Hetalia. Hetalia is an anime about personified countries. The picture of the girl I was looking exactly for was the girl version of Prussia, an albino.

I just rolled with the whole pirate outfit. But so anyways, I um, I decided I needed to redo like, all of her design. New name, new look. Although, I think I might keep the name Jade, just because a new first name puts a whole different spin on the character, and none of my friends would really like if I did that. So, basically everything minus her first name.

So I know there's like, no one out there, so I can't be all, "Oh, choose between this name and this one!" because I know I wouldn't get any response. So instead, I'm just going to think about it myself, and maybe post my thoughts, and then a new design. And maybe a different design.

That's basically what's happening, yo.

To Start Off, A Message

So, to those who are confused as to what the role-play, or Divided is, it's basically a book that my friends and I wrote together. It never was finished, and never was polished to where it was good. We tried to polish it but then we dropped it, and never came back. I doubt anyone is gonna come back, either.
Me and a friend had a fallout, and she isn't really in the friend group anymore. It's kinda really depressing. Not only that, but now that she's gone, most of the inspiration is gone too, and so I'm sitting here, kinda sad. No one is going back to the role-play, and it really sucks. Why? Because I loved it. It was fun, and it was creative, and it distracted me from how much I didn't like life. It kept me happy. I had characters and ideas that I loved, and I loved developing my characters, and I loved writing with my friends. And now it's just...gone.
So, I guess I'm making this blog in hopes to archive everything that I wanted to write in the role-play, in the book. All the ideas and head canons that I had, I'm just going to document them. I don't expect anyone to ever find this blog, either. But for some reason, I have a small hope that years from now I would have written the book, and people liked it, and they find this blog to have some sort of look on the inside while I planned and wrote this. The thought is just cool to me. But whatever. I doubt it'll happen.
Anyway, I don't know where to start with all of this. I was thinking about just posting one shots that I wrote with my girlfriend, but I don't want this blog to be just about AnthoBea. So I think I'm just gonna...go with it. There won't be any organization, or planning. I'll just be posting every week on Friday (although it's Thursday today. whoops.), about different things about the role-play.
If you find this, I'm sorry it's messy, and also confusing. I couldn't exactly...tell you how to make sense of it.

Also, I'm going to change a little about this blog, but not much. Probably just the url and title/description.

AND I'M BACK.

Holy shit you guys, okay, so in recent news I've come back and realized that holy cow my blog is too beautiful to go to waste. SO! I downloaded the blogger app, and I've decided on making this a roleplay blog. Those who have stayed with this blog should know what the roleplay is, with Bea and Lea and Jade and Anthony and Shade, etc. I'm basically just gonna blog about them. Why? Well, because I hate myself of course! I've come to terms that my friends will most likely not come back to the roleplay, and that I bug my girlfriend too much about it (though I'll probably still bug her). So here I am, lonely and lost, with my OCs and nothing to do with them. Time to fill the void in my heart and blog about them! You'll hear about more characters now, such as Lizzie and Hank (who are werewolves), Darel and Nate (family of Shade - both are nerds), and a new addition, Oliver Vindico. Along with that, I'll be revamping Jade (for personal/copyrighting reasons) and possibly laying out a plot and drafts for a book. Yes, I've been thinking about writing a book for these nerds. My friends and I were all going to write it together buuuut...yeah. Doesn't seem like that's gonna happen. So, without further hesitation, here's the re-opening of my blog!

PS: I'll most likely have other posts about other stuff too, like personal stuff or whatever. But it'll mainly be focused around the roleplay.

So long, Farewell, auf Wiedersehen, Adieu

So, this is going to be my last post of the year. This was a really fun project, and I had a lot of fun with it! Though I didn't get many page views, I still had fun posting and making my blog look cute. At the beginning of the year, I was only going to post music reviews. Thank God I decided that was too restricted. Not only did I have fun posting, but it was fun reading my other friends blogs!
But, this is not only going to be a goodbye post. Last quarter, my teacher requested that I put all of my OCs (Lea, Millie, Bea) together in a situation. Although they've been in many situations together in the book I'm writing with my friends, I didn't exactly have them all together...by themselves. So, here's my final little story, which is basically all three of them screwing around. Enjoy!

"Um, who's she." Lea said, pointing at me. I smiled a little, waving, but scooted a little behind Bea. She glared at me, and shifted in front of her table that had gears scattered across it. I swallowed a little. Bea rolled her eyes, stepping away from me.
"It's Millie, a girl I'm babysitting for the day while Tyler and Cassie are out," Bea said, her voice a little bitter. "Ugh, I can't believe they came to me. Why do they think I'm good with kids?" As she spoke, I fidgeted a little, not really sure what to do, or to say. I didn't really mind that she was complaining, after all I deserved it, but I just didn't know what to do.
"H-Hi." I squeaked out, my voice smothered in a southern accent. "How're ya?" Lea and Bea's eyes shifted to me, violet and yellow piercing my orange. I bit my lip, taking a step forward. "I'm Millie, I like your doo-das." I pointed at the gears on her table and Lea scoffed, rolling her eyes.
"Doo-das. Great. Wonderful. Listen, kid, if you knew what these could do, your mind would stop working. I can guarantee that. After all, you're ten, right? Nevermind, don't answer that. I'm right. You can't begin to understand the abilities we can do, so your little head won't take in what these are. They aren't just doo-das." I looked at the table and then at her, scuffling my feet.
"Y'know, I have a power too." I mumbled, looking away. Lea quieted down, scanning me.
"Really?" She wasn't asking me; Instead, Bea shrugged, leaning against the wall. "Yeah, that's what Tyler told me. Something about clouds." I tilted my head up and smiled.
"I can control weather." Lea looked at me some more, her eyes flicking down my body, scanning it. "Hm." She hummed, and turned to her gears. Picking one up, she turned a dial and pointed it at me, a small light shining in my eyes. I squinted, turning my face away.
"Hey, what're you d--" Lea cut me off, pushing the light closer. "Shut it. I'm taking a few tests and notes with this." She said, looking at a little screen attached to the device. Her black lips were pursed, and the light shut off. I blinked a few times, dazed.
"Well, seems you're not lying, at least, you think you aren't. You can't control weather. Weather occurrences happen whenever your emotions go askew. When you're older you'll be able to control it. But for now, you're just an accident waiting to happen." I frowned a little, looking at Bea, who was standing from the wall.
"Don't be so harsh, Lea. She's just a kid. And she can control it a little, I bet." She said, defending me. I went quiet, looking at the floor. The two bickered for a while, talking about whether or not I should be tested, and whether or not I'm safe. Finally, Bea grabbed my hand, pulling me out the door.
"We're gonna get ice cream." She muttered, and I smiled a little, walking with her.
"I never had ice cream." I mumbled. She gasped, and scooped me up.
"Well, let's go get some, hm? You can't go on forever without having any," Bea said, pulling a small, tired smile. I smiled back.
"Yay!"
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So, that was the little drabble I wrote. I didn't really have any idea in mind, just putting them together. And hoozah, they did stuff! Here's a picture of Lea and Millie, by the way (courtesy of Icon Generator):

Lea Vindico

Millie Stryker

If you want to make your own, go here. But, so this is sadly, farewell. I hope you all enjoyed this blog, because I put actual effort into this! Woo! So, later nerds, and have a nice life. Bye!! :D

Some More Tattoos I Would Like

Yeaaah I just really want to show you guys the other tattoos I like. Those other pictures were kinda only a small part. Again, all credit goes to Tumblr. Promise.

A lot, right? I'm probably never gonna get any of them so. *sighs* Anyways, ye-up, there you go guys!

A Bit of a Problem

So, lately, I've seen so many people with all sorts of piercings, like gauges and snake bites and such. And, not only that, but I'm also starting to like all sorts of tattoos that I've seen on Tumblr. And that's mainly just a problem cause these are kiiinda permanent body modifications. That my parents don't approve of. That my friends find trashy.
Hm.
But, for now, I just have wistful thinking. Maybe in a few years I'll grow out of the want to change my face and body, or maybe I'll actually get some piercings/tattoos. Really though, my entire fascination with piercings and tattoos only spiked this year, when I started getting into conversations about different tattoos with my friend Tori, and when I went with them to watch them get an industrial bar. When I was at the studio (known as Koi Piercing Studio), I saw all sorts of really beautiful piercing things, and I kinda fell in love. Ahaha. Ha. Anywho, yeah, here's some of the piercings/tattoos I would like to have.

Piercings:
For one, I would really like to have gauges. It's when you get your earlobe stretched and a big piece of jewelry is shoved into the hole. I don't know why I would like them. I just kinda do. But of course, I don't want like, those huge ones, that are kinda scary and look really painful! Naw, I just want little ones, big enough for tunnels. For those who are confused, here's some pictures:

Courtesy of The Horror Zine

how about no. imagine having a giant hole in your ear that people can look through, and it's weighed down by wood. sounds fun, right? ha.

Courtesy of Atomic Mall

reaaally cute tunnels I would like. I mean, who doesn't like gears???

Next, I would kinda like Snake Bites. It's a kind of piercing that is for lips, but not really...on your lips. It's actually two studs right under them, spaced out so it looks like a snake bit you there. I dunno, it looks pretty cool to me.

Courtesy of Read My Life..

Last, I would kinda like an industrial bar through my ear. Like I said before, Tori got one. It was a little scary watching it stabbed through their ear but it was fast and easy and it looks so cool. Gomme gimme gimmeeeee!

Courtesy of Ali Express

Okay so next, I'm gonna move onto tattoos. Because man. Tattoos. There are so many beautiful tattoos out there that I would want so badly, if I didn't have such a low pain tolerance. So, I'm just gonna post just a few of the tattoos that I would like to have, because if I posted all of them...well...let's not crash your guys' computers, hm? All credit goes to Tumblr.

I think I'm a serious sucker to watercolor tattoos (the one right above). They're so amazing and beautifullll....

So yeah, those are some of the things I would maybe like to get. Maybe later I'll post some more pictures. But until then, later yo.

They Get Into an Argument :\

Well I mean, my OTP can't always be mushy stuff. (remember kids, Anthony the classy dumbass belongs to my girlfriend, Allie. just a reminderrrr~)

I put my hands squarely on his chest, shoving him back. “I can’t believe you did that! Why can’t you just, for once Anthony, just fucking listen to me!” He took a step back, before clenching his fists.

“Because you’re irrational! You thought you could do it but you couldn’t!” He shouted, matching my tone. I growled, leaning forward, and bared my teeth at him in a snarl.

“At least I’m not always fucking it up! I wasn’t the one who failed the last mission because you held me back when I was supposed to move my position!” I was so angry, and a red haze covered my vision. Anthony started quivering, and I saw his jaw lock. He was trying to calm down. He opened his mouth to speak but I cut him off.

“You always think I can’t do shit but you’re always wrong! I’m the one who can operate, I’m the one who can control my Shadow, who can control my powers, unlike you, who’s only ever fucked up! When was the last time you were able to complete a mission, Anthony?! I’ve only seen you sulk, and when you actually do something, it’s when you fuck up! You killed Raven, you hurt Shade, you killed your best friend because you were afraid! All your life you’ve just messed up! And you think I can’t pull a simple stunt off?!” He stopped, staring me in the eye, and unclenched his fists. I hissed, shoving him again.

“You’re just taking it again! You can’t even defend yourself! I thought you were over that, I thought you were able to fucking defend yourself, Anthony!” I shouted, and he snapped, throwing his hands up.

“I WAS ONLY EVER ABLE TO DO THAT BECAUSE OF YOU!” That made me stop, tense, as his voice cracked on the last word. We both fell silent, everything frozen. Then, without another word, he turned, grabbing his coat off the rack and left, the door closing behind him.

I was shaking, and I screamed at the closed door, then grabbed the nearest thing to me, a vase with a few lilies in it, and I threw it at the wall, watching as the beautiful gift shattered, water, lilies, and shards going everywhere.

And then I broke down, dropping, hugging my knees to me as I curled up. Fuck.

UPDATE: This is really kinda off topic, kinda, but I've been drawing Bea a lot lately and got a good picture of her, and now I'm kinda in love with drawing her. So, here, have an anguished Bea, that could maybe fit into this story, hm? 

Yeah it doesn't exactly fit into the story but whatever. *waves hands*

Jade Harley is a Badass

Okay, so I wrote a Vital Vocab a little while ago and I cannot stop reading it over again. I just really love Jade! She's so elegant and strong and just, just, ahhhhhh Jade.... So anyways, I'm gonna shove the Vital Vocab at you. Read it. Now.

 I heard quiet comments ripple through the crowds as I made my way through the ballroom, my eyes dancing around easily as I took it all in. My party, my grand scheme, it was almost complete. Now all I needed was the Army to take the bait, and the chess game would finally begin.
“My, Jade really does look beautiful tonight, doesn’t she?” I heard from a man, to which a girl responded, “Yeah, she really is sublime.” I smirked slightly as I made my way to a table with all sorts of refreshments laid, picking up a small glass with bubbling champagne in it. As I took a small sip, my mind slipped out, entering everyone’s at once, catching every thought.
Jade looks more stoic than usual, I guess she’s trying to pull her masks again... I heard the single thought and turned to the carrier, catching the Main Guard’s eye. As soon as he met my cold stare, he got my succinct message, swallowed and turned away, trying to join in with an amiable conversation some people were having by him. A girl, elegantly dressed in a green dress, appeared by my side, munching on some crackers and cheese.
“What angle are you trying to play at, Jade?” She asked, some crumbs on her black lips. I merely smiled and took another sip, closing my eyes. “Ah, Leatrin. I’m only playing with my pawns. Notice how I didn’t invite many important pieces to the party?” They all surmise it’s for fun... She scoffed, lifting another cracker to her lips.
“Of course I did; not even Nate is here. Which is why I’m asking, what angle are you getting at with all this?” I finished off my glass and dropped it, hearing the usually strident shatter muffled by the music in the room.
“Bear with me, you’ll see. It’s all laid out.” Leatrin sighed, crossed her arms, turned. “You never tell me your plans.” She walked away, and I stepped over my broken glass, tapping a small button on my wrist. As the music slowed to a stop, I felt a small chip in the back of my throat turn on and my voice projected.
“Ladies and gentlemen, thank you all for coming out tonight to join me at my nineteenth birthday party. I hope you’ll all bare your souls tonight as we drink and dance, because you’ve all worked hard for a night such as this.” People started clapping and I let them carry out their applause before they quieted down.
“Now,” I sensed them walk in; the Army, Elizabeth, Beatrix, Tyler, Hank, Anthony, they slowly walked in. I caught Elizabeth's eye, and smiled wickedly. “Let’s all give a round of applause for our special guests, the Army!”

Just a little bonus, here's the dress Jade would be wearing at the ball:

she's such a babe ovo

What's up With The Fish??

Hey all, this is a PSA.
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FISH AREN'T THAT COOL.

Why am I saying this? Well, if you ever looked at anyone's blog besides mine, you'd see the dreaded, the cliché, and the absolutely pointless fish. Yes folks, I'm talking about the widget you can add to your blog, and the ones that you can feed by clicking on the screen. It's so dumb.
And when I mean everybody has them, I mean everybody.

Sara's blog?

Has them.

Siri's?

At least she admits they're cliché.

Yep they're there.

Alix's?

Mhm.

Courtney or even Audrey?

Got em.

Allie's blog?

THERE'S THREE.

What's this? You think they're fun and entertaining? Well then have fun with that. Feeding black pellets to electronic fish that are more greedy than Gollum when he sees a ring.
Seriously people. Be a little original with it. I mean, it was kinda cute at the beginning of the year, with the whole "oh my gosh I can change the color and ahhh it follows my cursor!" but then, a whole year later, it's just kinda annoying. It's just my opinion, though. And I might even be offending some people. If so, I'm sorry. Have fun with your fish. I'll be here with my fish-less blog, happy as a clam.

UPDATE: Oh thank the lord, at least Bella doesn't have them. Thaaaaaank youuuuu Bella! :D

I wrote a story!

Hey again! So, I wanted to share with you my story that I recently wrote, but there's one problem. It's kinda long. I mean, not book length, it's only 1,000 words or so, but I mean, that's a lot for some. It was a collab writing too, with the help of my waifu. So, if you'd like to read it, click the little read more thing. Also, it's really sad. Just, just warning you.