Happy Halloween!!

Hey guys! I just wanted to wish you all a great Halloween, and the hopes of not getting cavities. Also, here's a little something that I made. It's the crew, all ready for trick or treating! From left to right, it's Nate, Shade, Darel, and Bea. Anyways, see you all next time!! (click on the picture for the full size)

A Halloween RP (and some pictures)

To start off, I made a version of Bea for Halloween, and she is a vampire. She's very cute as a vampire. mhm. I also did one for Shade, in which she's in a dungeon (probs just getting done with almost killing someone), and is covered in blood. c:

And, a roleplay! It'll steadily get larger so I'll put it under a read more, and I'll just keep it under this post. So for updates on the roleplay, just click the RP and you'll see all replies, from my friend and from me. The characters of my friend are Shade, Nate, and Jade. I have Bea, Lea, and Jade. Ye. So let's begin!

(to accompany the post below)

Father was the one who told me.

"Coach of football team, 

perfectly healthy, 

dropped lifeless with stopped heart."

Father said nonchalantly,

as if was any                                                   other                                             news.

I nodded, continued conversation, but later,

I grieved.

Even though I didn’t know his name,

I grieved.

No clue what he looked like,

I still grieved.

Allie said 

my mind was b e a u t i f u l . 

People perish, every day.

But I managed to grieve for all of them. 

But question is, 

why wouldn’t you grieve for someone who 

ceases to exist?

A Farewell

So, I'm not going to explain anything. this hasn't been edited, or reread. just typed once. sorry, this is a little heavy today.

Dear Sara’s Grandma,

I’m writing to someone I’ve never met, and someone I never will meet. You died, on Thursday morning of last week. I never heard about you until early September, from your granddaughter, Sara. She told me that you meant so much to her, and that it was her fault that you were dying. 

I didn’t understand what was happening, why she thought it was her fault, but I knew that she loved you a lot. So I’m writing to you as a goodbye from a stranger. Although I will forget you in my later years, I remember you for now, and I want to say that I hope you’re in good hands now. I promised Sara that you would be, and that it would be better this way. That you would feel better once it was over.

But this isn’t just a farewell. Your granddaughter is brave, and scared at the same time. You told her to watch out for her family, and to be strong, and for a fifteen year-old, that is too much to ask for on your death bed. She is under pressure and is slowing cracking, and to hear that she needs to do even more than she is now from her grandmother who is slowly withering away… It made her shatter on the inside. I don’t mean to be cruel or make you guilty, just know that she is trying, for you, and that she cannot always keep your wishes.

I will keep an eye out for her, and to help her carry the weight on her shoulders. I promise you that. So, farewell, Sara’s grandmother. I hope you have a good life on the other side.

Sincerely, Bailey Giauque

....

"Well, ah, actually, Shade...There's ahaha...there's a reason why I dragged you out here. I um, well, god, I'm bad with words. I ah...Here, this flower reminded me of your eyes. *nervous laughter* I really um, I really like you, Shade. Would you like to, I dunno, go out sometime? U-Unless you don't like me back. Then. Then just forget everything. I'll burn the flower."

(For those who are confused, it's a little reply to a friend who called me out on her blog. sorry, y'all, it's a private blog. you're gonna have to deal. but look! it's a picture of my character! huzzah!!!!!)

Ever Get That Feeling?

Okay, so, I wanna talk about my characters a little. I love them all so much, but then there's just the main two: Bea and Jade. No one knows Lea, no one knows Oliver. No one has any special connection with them, and probably never will (I doubt we'll ever restart the restart). And it just....kinda sucks? I don't know how to explain it.

Everyone loves Bea so much, and everyone knows Jade and has their emotions towards her, whether it be love or hatred, they at least has something for them. There's a song for Lea called Shatter Me by Lindsey Stirling, and I fell in love with it, because it describes her so well. Always surrounded by gears and metal and all of her work, and she's always alone. She's somewhat friends with Jade, and has her brother, Oliver, but she always ends up smothering herself with her work, and she never really has a life.

She feels like she can't, because she's devoted to the Shadows and because of her intelligence, she feels that she has better things to do, more things to develop. So she isn't exactly happy. So she hopes for someone to come in, to take her away from everything, to distract her. To shatter her. To make her feel alive. And because everyone already has their own thoughts and ships and everything...it feels like she'll never find anyone. And that just makes me feel sad. I hope something develops someday. That I'll figure something out and she can have a happy ending.

*sighs* Sorry, this is a sorta sad post, huh? Oh well. Sorry for the whole thing of not posting in a while, school is making me very panicky and that's kinda the priority for now. But I promise when I have time (like now), I'll try and muster up somethin'. *grins* until then, later!!

Wow, a Post That's Not About The Roleplay??

damn, this is weird. I basically made this blog for Divided, but as you can (hopefully) remember, I did say that it was also going to have some personal stuff too. So, today, I'm just gonna ramble about this year's Banzai, and also Halloween.

So, last year, maybe you remember my four (five? idk) posts about Banzai, and my cosplays, and the struggles and the fun times and all that. Well, that time is rolling around again! I'm excited but also nervous as hell to go, because for one, this year, I'm sticking with Tori and their friends only. Because of the fact that Alix, Madison, and Sara all can't go, Siri decided that it wasn't worth it, and now Allie doesn't really seem like she wants to go. So I'm ah, I'm really bummed out about that. *sighs* I wish we could all go. Last year it was really fun to be with all my friends and hang out. Oh well. Maybe I convince Allie to still go...?

But, besides that, let's get onto the part that I wanna ramble about. My cosplays. Talking to some of my friends, I found out that some are taking around like, eight cosplays with them. Like, no thanks. I would prefer not to have to lug all that around and have to deal with changing in the middle of the day. But, perhaps, I might have more than three cosplays this time 'round.

So, this year, I'm gonna be kinda dull. I'm gonna be actual Aradia this time, unlike last year (which was a sucky try at human Aradia). I even got my horns and fixed my shirt!!!! I'm so excited to try and be her this year. Next, I'm going to try and be fem!Karkat. What I wanna try and do is find a turtleneck black sweater (hopefully it won't be super hot there) and then get grey jeans and grey paint, and paint the turtleneck. I'll most likely use my Aradia wig, and just pull it into a braid or pigtails, I dunno yet. I'm also gonna try and pull back my Crockercorp Jade this year (yeah, I know, lame reusing cosplays). I just have the slight issue that my friend took my skirt so uh, hopefully I'll get that back. Ahaha. *shifts a little*

But, I also am starting to pull together another cosplay! Recently, I lost my heart and my soul to a show called Gravity Falls. My heart was taken by the main character, Dipper Pines, the dorky and nerdy and paranoid noodle kid. So, I wanted to try and take a stab at cosplaying fem!Dipper! I have the hat, shorts, and hair to do it. I just need the vest and the shirt, and then I'm set, I suppose.

Anywho, I'm a bit scared and nervous about this year's Banzai. Hopefully I won't be pulled into the drama there and end up crying and having a breakdown (like so many do o~o)

Next on my agenda is Halloween. I'm panicky about that thing. Idk what to do for it. I might do fem!Dipper (most likely, if I can't pull it together by Banzai), or maybe do Charlie Brown ghost (but that's pretty lame), but I also really really really wanna do a cheshire cat kinda thing. but that's kinda hard to do with all the dressing and then the makeup (I wanna do the cool mouth thing), and I probably wouldn't be able to trick or treat in that costume. So, maybe I'll just do fem!Dipper. Idk man. I'm panicky. q-q

So yeah, that's all on my mind. I should be focusing on school, but nope. It's cosplay month. WOO.

OH! A final note. Allie wanted all of us to go to Banzai, and cosplay our characters. So she'd be Anthony, I'd be Bea, Sara would be Shade, Siri would be Lizzie, Alix would be Shi (you haven't really met her), and Madison would be Skyler (nor her). Allie already has most of her cosplay put together and she's ho t. I would like to cosplay Bea too. Maybe someday...*looks off into the distance* . . . what was the point of this paragraph? I dunno. Just a little thought of mine. ANYWAY! Until next time!!!!! :D

Whoa who would've guessed I sure didn't

Yeah it's more Neat. sorry.